Montreal here I come?
Here's how things work with my travel buddy: Similar to other trip planning, we say 1."hey, it might be fun to go somewhere" 2. "Let's go somewhere" 3. Arrange travel via FF Miles, price, etc. 4. Plan fun things to do while there 5. Go and have fun
This however moves at an accelerated pace in my world: Yesterday - "I think I want to go somewhere - I have enough miles for a flight. think about where you want to go" Last night - "So where are we going?" This morning (after giving him a list of places I would like to go) - "I've never been to Montreal or Boston" Later this morning - "Let's go to Montreal" This afternoon - "We're going to Montreal" Tomorrow - we're booking everything for the first week in October
So, anyone have tips on Montreal in October? Good fun awaits me, and I need to find it!
The heart is a funny organ
When I went to the doctor a month ago they reminded me of something really scary - I have a heart
murmur due to a couple heart surgeries I had when I was 4 and 5 years old, which I am very aware of in medical situations. When I went to the doctor, she said: "Just let us know if you're going to the dentist and we'll refill your antibiotics for you". I am supposed to take 6 antibiotic pills the night before I go to the dentist - When I get my teeth cleaned, there is the possibility that bacteria can enter my bloodstream, get into my heart and because of the murmur - KILL ME. Isn't that scary? it was a good thing I hadn't been to the dentist in a year and a half (bad for the oral hygiene rant I went on the other day...I know). But isn't that scary? Isn't that weird? The dentist could kill me...and I thought I didn't have enough reason to not want to go. So physically - my one muscle that keeps me goin' is a little wounded - not quite at 100%.
Emotionally, my percentage has been fluctuating, but never under 90% I'd say. As much as my heart was wounded, it's almost as if you're more capable and open to letting love in. Especially because during the tough times, although it feels like one person has ripped it into two - you see how much love there is coming from all of the other people who are in your life, and you want to give it back to them. My little corazon is healing now, and I feel like this is my first true emotional scar that's developing as an "adult". Getting close to the person that caused me so much pain again and seeing what we could be in the future is scary - I don't want more scars on my heart, no more battle wounds or signs of pain from the past - but it's also comforting and not scary in so many ways that it seems like it should be. I realize some things are inevitable and there's no way in preventing what is going to pass from passing - but in some ways, my heart is already physically flawed...I want to protect it from any more damage, maybe more so than most. It's not a matter of fear or making excuses - but one of concern and protection. We all only have one heart - and want to protect it from hurt and pain, wounds and scarring - physically and emotionally.
Last night we were laying in bed before going to dinner, just talking and dozing and cuddling - it was perfect, remembering how we used to be and telling each other how much we missed this. And then we dozed, and then after a couple minutes he looked up at me and said, "I can hear your heart". I can't explain it, but it was a moment. One of those knowing moments when you can see more than you ever thought was possible by looking into someone's eyes. You can see their heart and feel the connection between yours and theirs.
It's strange how one thing in our body wields so much power over who we are and what we're made of - I mean, really the liver, the kidneys, the pancreas...not so much. Our livers do treat us well though for those of us who besiege it with alcohol and make it work overtime...Oh well, those are just random thoughts on life, death, biology and dental hygiene (apparently this week's unofficial theme). Whew! That was kinda deep and reflective - score!
Close to home
There's a quaint little convenience store inside the world trade center buildings across the street from my office - which I frequent probably once or twice every two weeks. The owner/manager guy is this little asian dude with a serious rushing problem - but all in all, good selection, i like the moroccan girl that works there and they have cheeto's (which I tend to get random cravings for).
Today, I needed lunch and toothbrushing equipment (important to brush after every meal - don't neglect dental hygiene - but this was due to the medecine i'm taking for aforementioned mouth infection). So I'm sauntering over and happen to see 'homeland security' cops outside the building with denver police, kind of barricading the entry now that I think of it. I figure "hey! maybe someone exciting is in town!" So, I smile at the security dude, walk to Russel's (the store) and go about my business meandering through the toothbrush selection (there were two), deciding whether or not I should buy floss for $1.99 and picking and choosing from a bunch of salads for lunch. I was really in no rush. I happened to ask the guy that was working (some new hippie-ish guy) who was in town - this was his response:
"no one...There was a bomb threat on the building and they evacuated"
A BOMB THREAT!!! ON THE WTC IN DENVER?!?! That's crazy...Wow. So I make my purchase and walk out, for some reason afraid to smile at the security guard on my way out - the situation seemed much graver now and not smile appropriate. I actually didn't make eye-contact with anyone on my way out, including the bomb-sniffing dog.
So I'm crossing the 16th street mall looking at all these people thinking, "wow, they have no idea that there could be a bomb inside that building...kinda scary...kinda scary that my building is literally 25 feet from said potentially bomb holding building"
I ask our old little front desk security guard if he knows what's going on across the street, and he validates it for me. He's one of those little old security guards that you know would try to stop a bad guy in his tracks but would have no chance - he's cute. Anyway...
So when I tell everyone in my corner we realize "hey, they didn't evacuate Russel's...but everyone else was in the big plaza outside..." They must really be concerned about customer service. So, there was a bomb threat and they just let me walk right in, buy my salad and my toothbrush and walk out - even though they had evacuated the rest of the building. odd? I think so...
Culture Schmulture...
Quote from Rickesh at Global Village:
"Culture Schmulture...f*** Greenland, who cares about Greenland anyway?"
No way this was his last conference...I personally enjoyed winning an I heart Denmark t-shirt.
I have oral candida - basically feels like lots of canker sores all over my mouth caused by antibiotics - it hurts, and I can't talk or eat. And yesterday I had a bit of a fever and slept for 15 hours after work before today. Glad it's le weekend. Need the rest after my three weekends of 'being single' and hittin' the town! Just call me sleepy sleeperton for the next 48 hours...
ONE
I was shocked and amazed that more people at conference weren't familiar with the ONE campaign - check out their
blog...It's strikingly similar to nomadlife, but we have fewer current celebrities listed on ours.
I'm a traveling fool
Well, maybe not the fool, but I am traveling. I'm going on my first official business trip today - to the city of angels (haha, almost typed angles - interesting thought) for the first time. I will be returning to the conference hotel late on Tuesday night - so the party better be started and ready for some dancin'! Of course, I have to go to work on Wednesday morning - but everyone's leaving anyways...
It is so nice to see everyone again and to have fun and dance and just talk. I looooove aiesec!
why so anxious?
Is it because I haven't really been back since the breakup? Is it because there will be lots of people there - wondering what happened? Is it because I don't know if I'll automatically assume the worst if I see him talking to other ladies - and then will have the rationalize my way out of it all night? Is it because I don't know what to wear, and today is the most humid day of the year and my hair is frizzy?
I don't know - but I am super anxious today. But here is my horoscope for the day:
"Fake it 'til you make it. Even if you're currently feeling the teensiest bit less than confident, you really do have the goods to back up all the hype. so stand up straight and smile until your self-esteem returns to normal."
And en francais (I get this every day - but in honor of the special occasion will share with you):
"La chance et le bonheur pourraient venir beaucoup plus rapidement et facilement que vous ne vous y attendiez. Pour cela, prenez le chemin de la philosophie, et portez sur les choses un regard plus eleve. Soyez consciente de l'importance des choix que vous ferez. Un v"eritable defi vous attend! Attention, ne devenez pas trop rigide, gardez votre esprit ouvert a toutes les options possibles. Toute attitude bornee pourrait gener votre progres."
Let's see what we can take from these
- Think about the choices I make tonight - everything is a choice. It will be my choice to be anxious and over-analytical - I am choosing right now, not to be. Might be an internal catfight, but I'm sure the side I choose will win.
- Be open - open to meet everyone, open to meet boys, open to wine? I can handle that.
- Be open to all of the options - i.e. being his best friend? i can handle that too, and will choose to do so.
- It's all about my attitude - it's up to me!
- And...in the end, if my choices don't really work out - I can fake it, and still be okay!
I do read my horoscopes every day, don't live by them - but I think in cases like this they can help give a boost/insight into your day. I'm also enjoying my affirmations today on my blog..."I'm friendly, I'm fun - and gosh dangit, people like me!"
Heartz!
Tomorrow's the day
Let's call it "friendship day", or "first true display of friendship day", or "would be 8 month anniversary day". Any of these are appropriate for tomorrow's gathering at Steven's loft. Les Bavards (the french convo group that we met at 8 months ago) is being held once again at his loft. This is the second time - the first time was in april about 4 days after we got back from Paris and were all lovey dovey. Now we are friendy dendy...or something like that/in between.
I will look hot. I will speak french and tell my friends what happened in french and act flirty with guys in french - as monsieur host is not tres fluent. Although it will at times be awkward, I'm sure, it will also be fun. A good first opportunity to be friends in public. As long as he doesn't flirt with anyone - we should all have a good time. I'm so easy to be ex friends with, huh?
For those of you who will be in town tomorrow night - I sent out an email over US-VOICE, but it never got sent out: You're more than welcome to come. It's from 6:30 to 10 and is for all levels of french speakers, and there is lots of wine and food!!! It's fun, you should come - if not only for moral support - even if you don't speak french, I'll smuggle you in - I know the place like the back of my hand. It's also right in the heart of downtown Denver and it's a million dollar loft with
amazing art. If anything, just come to 1) give moral support, 2) come see the ex, 3) come see this amazing place, 4) drink lots of free wine, 5) meet cool people.
There's the list...do what you must.
I think I might use sparknotes more post-grad
gabby5155 | (Dominant Extroverted Concrete Feeler) You are an ACTIVIST (DECF)— motivated and righteous, you feel the need to change this harsh, horrible world we live in. The world would be your oyster, if you weren't 27% likely to be vegetarian. Anyway, you are forceful and outgoing, so you enjoy interacting with other people and are willing to aggressively pursue your goals. If you are male, you are probably thin and lanky, just because that's what activists look like. If you are female, you probably wear thick-rimmed glasses and tight clothes *or* some kind of hippie outfit. In more general terms, you are driven much more by emotion than logic. But because of your ideals, you are more interested in real-world results than abstract conclusions. Advice from us: Make sure you listen to your opposition. Don't hasten to attack different ideologies. This will also help your relationship with your friends. |
Compared to 14,750,863 other test takers... | 65% are more Submissive than you. | | 18% are more Dominant than you. |
| 17% are just as Dominant as you. |
| 71% are more Introverted than you. | | 14% are more Extroverted than you. |
| 15% are just as Extroverted as you. |
| 55% are more Abstract than you. | | 24% are more Concrete than you. |
| 20% are just as Concrete as you. |
| 72% are more Thinking than you. | | 16% are more Feeling than you. |
| 12% are just as Feeling as you. |
Some interesting facts about The Personality Test... 
14,750,863 people have taken the test.
Of those,
64% were female and
36% were male.
The most common personality type is
Dreamer at
12% of test takers.
The least common is
Administrator at only
3%.
Women prefer
Einstein. Men do, too.
Women would rather sell their
bodies. Men would, too.
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The Jordanians came back!
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Originally uploaded by gabby5155.Well, they didn't return, but the Jordanians we randomly met prior to the CU/CSU game last year finally emailed Travis Fawcett. Keep in mind, this was a YEAR ago, and he just emailed and sent pics. This was a fun day.
